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Hesitation

I pushed open the door and plopped down in the chair

Punched in eight numbers and listned for the ring

Buzzz, buzzz, buzzz - "Hello." Mom! "Hii Mom!"

There was this and here is that and what is it?

Oh, maybe then, perhaps now, probably later.

Sorry, sorry, sorry. Is okay - smile, please, smile.

Oh, mwah. Must go so soon? Mom? Ah....yeah...

 

Click. Gone? So soon? What's this feeling?

Nothings broken, right? Nothing to fix, not broken.

Why do I feel this way then? Did I do something,

everything, anything wrong? Is it passing?

 

I'm just so stuck. Caught like a tse tse fly

In a drip of amber. I carry a disease, fatal

eventually, slower but certain. I'm preserved

This moment of hesitation and confused

Meandering between action and passive

Is preserved - paralyzed. Unless --- unless?

I can let go - how does one free oneself

From so sticky a situation, a trap of their mind

The fly will never be free but what about me?

I am not fly, can I please be free?

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I Swear...
I swear everytime I've got something important (to me that is) computers find it amusing to fault and everything is lost. Getting sick of it. I hope this one works though.

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Hesitation

I pushed open the door and plopped down in the chair

Punched in eight numbers and listned for the ring

Buzzz, buzzz, buzzz - "Hello." Mom! "Hii Mom!"

There was this and here is that and what is it?

Oh, maybe then, perhaps now, probably later.

Sorry, sorry, sorry. Is okay - smile, please, smile.

Oh, mwah. Must go so soon? Mom? Ah....yeah...

 

Click. Gone? So soon? What's this feeling?

Nothings broken, right? Nothing to fix, not broken.

Why do I feel this way then? Did I do something,

everything, anything wrong? Is it passing?

 

I'm just so stuck. Caught like a tse tse fly

In a drip of amber. I carry a disease, fatal

eventually, slower but certain. I'm preserved

This moment of hesitation and confused

Meandering between action and passive

Is preserved - paralyzed. Unless --- unless?

I can let go - how does one free oneself

From so sticky a situation, a trap of their mind

The fly will never be free but what about me?

I am not fly, can I please be free?

Add a Comment
I Swear...
I swear everytime I've got something important (to me that is) computers find it amusing to fault and everything is lost. Getting sick of it. I hope this one works though.

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